Yesterday… we hit a trigger while playing. What was meant to be fun descended into introspection and sadness that I still have to deal with all the feelings of inadequacy I had with my husband and also feeling physically abnormal because my body refused to do things it was supposed to do.
Now, I need to recover from these feelings, process them, pack them in their boxes and send them on their merry way.
I don’t want all the wrong things in my marriage to keep following me, I want them gone. The divorce is ongoing but it is happening and he will be gone too.
I want to be free in my head and I want to be free full stop.
I want to move on.
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