The Punisher, Brat Fairy and the kidnap.

Indeed, Brat Fairy has made it known to him that she wanted to experience a real kidnapping, to see how it feels like. Well, the Punisher enjoys a good Damsel in distress game so, he's so so up for it.

Brat Fairy has no idea that the Punisher has decided that the day was ... today. He's got his new ropes ready, his duct tape ready and long towel to imprison Brat Fairy's wings as we wouldn't want them to be damaged in the process.

As it happens, Naughty Fairy and Sadist Dom are also in the known and have made sure that all the doors are open at Naughty's place for the Punisher to come in, snatch Brat and then drag her out. As he arrives to the house, he sees that Brat Fairy is being ... punished by Sadist Dom! She's over his needs and being spanked! Oh well, Brat Fairy must have been bratty then! Sadist Dom saw the Punisher signing at the window and knows that he has to ... get away.  He makes her stand up and go to the corner for some corner time. She's forbidden to turn around, no matter what sound she hears.

The Punisher enters the house, goes to Brat Fairy with a cloth impregnated with an incapacitating liquid, something that is not going to make her unconscious, just that little bit more compliant. For once she obeyed and she didn't turn. He covers her mouth and nose with the cloth. When she is completely under the influence of the drug, he removes the cloth and takes her to the sofa. He takes the towel from his bag and wraps it around her wings. Then he wraps lots of rope around her to makes sure that she doesn't escape. He tapes her mouth and her eyes. She is now ready to be kidnapped.

He half carries her half drags her to his carriage and goes off.

He arrives at his house and half carries half drags Brat Fairy and lay her on his couch. He goes to get his bag and locks the door with is key that he then puts in his pocket. He opens his bag and grab some ropes that he puts in his trousers' pockets. He then make Brat Fairy stand up and takes her to a pillar in the centre of the room where he attaches her to, ensuring she cannot go anywhere.

And he waits for her to recover from her "ordeal".

Which she does right about ... now.

Fucking Hell, where am I?

Oh we are awake, aren't we?

Why am I tied up, let me go! What am I doing here?

Oh my dear, but I won't let you go, it is going to be so much fun to have you here with me. And we are expecting some visitors by the way.

First knock on the door... SadistDom is coming to visit and has ... a plate on his hand with some M&Ss. Brat Fairy is starting to feel a little bit afraid... She certainly doesn't want the bitter hot sweets. No way. Unfortunately, she can't escape! He approaches her with his evil smile and prepares to give her one sweet, which she refuses to take. She doesn't want to open her mouth... Oh dear. Brat Fairy is happy to play tricks on others but doesn't want to have the same done to her. SadistDom puts the plate on the sofa and then goes back to her holding one sweet in his hand and then catches her hair and pulls sharply to get her to gasp and then puts the sweet in her mouth. He then puts his hand over her mouth to prevent her from spitting it out! Brat Fairy is definitely not enjoying that as she is fighting against her bonds.

Actually, speaking about fighting against her bonds, she found a way to escape and has started to work on her plan. Where the Punisher made a mistake is that he puts one of the knots next to her hand! Silly mistake that she is taking advantage of while SadistDom is trying to get her to eat that sweet. Well, she did swallow it but the bitter hot taste is still lingering on. One of her hands is free, and she is starting to free her other hands as SadistDom realises what is happening and catches her free hand and ties her again. He knows what to do with Brat escapologist and is making sure that there are no longer any weak point in the tie. Brat Fairy is now stuck.

Knock knock on the door. Looks like SadistDom's visit is coming to an end and she has a new visitor... Domly Dom. Oh dear. It looks like the whole place is aware of what is happening to Brat Fairy! And they are taking their revenge! Poor Brat Fairy is being truly punished. I thought it was a kidnapping!

Domly Dom is carrying an envelope in his hands. Brat Fairy knows exactly what's coming. Indeed, it's the glitter bomb! And she's covered in glitter from head to toes.

It looks like the day is going to be long!

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Once the village had their turn for once, Brat Fairy is covered in various things shiny, sticky, smelly. She's still tied up very tight and she is far too tired. The Punisher comes back into the room to untie her and take her to the bathroom where he ties her again in the bath and leaves her there for the night.

Oh dear me, Brat Fairy has been getting her retribution for her brattiness and her tricks.

Well as she's too tired, she goes to sleep and so am I as I am struggling to keep awake. I'll rejoin my ropes and will let you know what will happen next once she awakens.

Recipe anti-blues

Good bunch of friends
Get tied up to a pillar
Get spanked while running away

Lots of ouch
Lots of laugh
Lots of fun

Let's do that again.

So much pain in this world

And so much death, either by force of nature or by force of the law.
I have to be grateful for what I have, I'm still here, I'm still breathing so I still have a chance to make things right for me.

Basically, as long as I keep breathing, I'll keep on fighting no matter how hard it gets, how grim it gets, how frustrating it gets, I won't let it go and surrender.

I will fight to make my life better. It may take me more months, years even but I will fight. Or I'll die trying. But I will not give up.

Here we go again with Brat Fairy

Once upon a time, a Brat Fairy was a little Fairy and got into mischief anytime she could. She got called brat because she always blamed others and always talked back to adults.

Now that she is an adult, she's even worse.

Domly Dom has left the Fairy land for new pasture and Sadist Dom has come to visit for the weekend. He's staying with Naughty Fairy. Brat Fairy is very intrigued by Sadist Dom as she has heard that sadists are really fun to be with.

But she didn't want to visit him while Naughty Fairy was there. She waited for her to leave her house and that Sadist Dom was alone for her to show up with a tray covered by a cloth.

Knock knock

Who's there?

Brat Fairy, coming to say hello to you.

Sadist Dom opens the door and see Brat Fairy all dressed fairy like with her wings on display.

Oh Sadist Dom, I am so happy to meet you. I have heard so much about you. And saying that, she comes into the house, still carrying the tray.

I have brought a surprise for you. She removes the cloth and shows a plate full of S&Ms, all colourful.

I thought you could enjoy the company and some sweets.

You should know by now that Brat Fairy has always something up her sleeve. She offers him the S&M but doesn't take any. Sadist Dom doesn't know Brat Fairy nor what she does. He puts the sweet in his mouth and makes a face straight away as they taste totally disgusting. They're not S&Ms but some special concoction extremely bitter and hot, an explosive combination.

What Brat Fairy doesn't know is that Sadist Dom has been authorised by the Fairy Council to apply the punishments in the village while the Punisher is away on holiday for the Bank Holiday weekend.

Oh Brat Fairy is in trouble. Sadist Dom grabs Brat Fairy and puts her on his knees to give her the mother of all spankings for her trick.

It looks like it backfired a bit on her....

I think Sadist Dom may have more work than originally thought.

Sadness

My jar of pain is overflowing again
Tears are streaming down my face
All I see is never ending struggle
I am unable to find peace

I need someone to hold me close
I need someone to cherish me
I need someone to take away the hurt

My heart is broken
My head is in pain
My life is a mess

I am just a little girl lost
In the forest of life
And I need to find my way again

Tired but I will not give up

In as much as I would love giving up everything and just pack it up, I know this will never happen. You know why? Because despite of everything that little light is still shining in me, despite all the crap that hurts my soul and try to blow that light away. But this light is very resistant, it is made of the strongest stuff, positivity and an eagerness to live.

My light will never die. No matter how hard some may try, it will never die. It will keep on shining and it will be there until my dying day, however far it is.

I am strong because of that light.

Darkness will not engulf me.
Water will not drown me.
Fire will not burn me.

I am invincible because of that light.

I am furious

I have been in talk with this Master since yesterday. We kind of tested the water. I gave him a few chances (more than I would have had) because he seemed sincere.

He seemed to have the funny idea that because he is a Master, I am going to agree upfront to do whatever he wishes. I am not stupid. I am not naive. I may be a sub, I have a strong wish to serve but I am not going to do that at whatever cost.

I will never ever do skype sex with anyone or send sex pictures to anyone. This is not what this is about. I have been told that I was not a sub, that I was topping from bottom because I have refused to stand up and show my legs to that person I have only known the existence yesterday.

What is wrong with you people? It is not because I am down (I didn't get that job by the way) that I am going to let you do anything to me. Hell no!

I am a sub, yes, but within the parameters that I agree to submit to.

It is not because I put myself out there on a dating site that I am going to show you my flesh. You can dream about that, that is totally free and you are welcomed to it. But it will take much more than just your self-appointed title for it to happen for real.

Call yourself a Master? Well, I am not going to call you a Master, I'll call you stupid and it is much better that you are not my Dominant.

No wonder also why you seem to think everyone is a fake around. Good luck to you and good riddance.

A very difficult day today in perspective

So far my writing has helped me to keep afloat, either because I was expressing something that buggered me or because I experienced something that I wanted to experience through my words.

Life is very difficult at the moment. I have no anchor. I am drifting across the sea, without direction. I don't know where I am going to land. But land somewhere I will. I may land in a lush beautiful place but with dangers lurking beneath the beds of flowers. Or I may reach a barren land, devoid of pleasure but also devoid of danger, of pain, just emptiness.

I have no way of commanding which direction I am going. At the moment, I am just drifting. But I struggle to keep my head above the water. I sometimes swallow some and am at the point of drowning but somehow something is pushing me back up and I cough it all out.

Fantasy world does help and the fact that I am out there looking for more people to play with and also for a Dom means that I have to remain sociable. I am starting to think like a friend of mine whether it would not better to leave it all and have an easier life, like the barren island. That life would be a hell lot easier. But I will definitely not be happy as I will not be challenged to be more than what I am now, to be what I am meant to be. I much prefer the lush island filled with dangers but also with pleasures that only I and the partner I will be with will get to experience.

I just need to keep afloat a little be more. I must not drown. Not yet, not now. Not after what I have gone through. I need to keep afloat.

Robyn Be Mine!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OCtvP0pdPoA

It's a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain
As if a good thing ever could make up for all the pain
There'll be no last chance, I promise to never mess it up again
Just a sweet pain of watching your back as you walk
As I'm watching you walk away
And now you're gone, there's like an echo in my head
And I remember every word you said

It's a cool thing you'll never know all the ways I tried
It's a hard thing faking a smile when I feel like I'm falling apart inside
And now you're gone, there's like an echo in my head
And I remember every word you said

And you never were and you never will be mine
No, you never were and you never will be mine

For the first time, there is no mercy in your eyes
And the cold wind's hitting my face and you're gone
And you're walking away
And I am helpless sometimes, wishing's just no good
'Cause you don't see me like I wish you would

'Cause you never were and you never will be mine
No, you never were and you never will be mine

There's a moment to seize every time that we meet
But you always keep passing me by
No, you never were and you never will be mine

I saw you at the station
You had your arm around what's-her-name
She had on that scarf I gave you
You got down to tie her laces

'Cause you never were and you never will be mine
(You looked happy and that's great)
No, you never were and you never will be mine
(I just miss you, that's all)

'Cause you never were and you never will be mine
No, you never were and you never will be mine

There's a moment to seize every time that we meet
But you have always keep passing me by
No, you never were and you never will be mine
'Cause you never were and you never will be mine
No, you never were and you never will be mine

There's a moment to seize every time that we meet
But you have always keep passing me by
No, you never were and you never will be mine

My rant

OK, I am now back on the shelf after possibly the shortest D/s relationship in history.

Inasmuch as I am OK with the issue of incompatibility of kink, I don't know how much clearer I can make it about who I am, what I do, how I play. I am possibly a lot more open about this than a lot of people.

But then again, it is not because I am primal that I am any less submissive. I am very submissive and very obedient. But I need control. A lot of it. Yes, it is hard work. But then aren't all D/s relationships hard work too?

You, Doms out there looking for your subs, you need to invest yourself into the relationship otherwise it will fail. You should take risks on relationships that may not be the obvious choice as you never know what you may gain. If you don't want me, this is absolutely fine. But if you're interested by me, then take a chance. Don't be scared about primalism, just see this as an excuse to do some wrestling and get more hand on!

And please don't get intimidated by what I write in my eroticas. Reality can be so much better.

Basically, don't get scared of the unknown, I am more than just primal but primalism does define me in my play. You dream of controlling someone, well there's your chance. Do it, control me. I am giving you that, my submission, my obedience. But in play, that submission will need to be reclaimed by you, forcefully. How more fun can that be?

If you are not ready to embrace this unknown, it is better not to get started.